i’m hungry. . .

so i’m sitting at bailey. i should be making flashcards for microbiology, but i think i’ll do that later. i just need a place where i can write down my thoughts and get them out of my head. xanga is lame and facebook is too open. i have a tendency of saying things that are on my mind on there, then getting criticized for them. i don’t really feel like being criticized right now.

i usually love politics. i love a good debate/chat where the other person you talk to has differing opinions than you and you can have a civil conversation with them, sharing your thoughts, listening to there’s and vice versa. i like that. what i don’t like is politics these days. its really just getting sucky. it feels like this election is just turning into a competition. its really not about the issues anymore. it sounds cliche, but its true. you have team obama and you have team mccain. who do you support? its not who’s ideals do you support anymore, its which person.

i am pretty conservative and pretty much all of my friends are quite liberal or don’t really care much either way. actually ever since high school when i started getting interested in politics and figuring out where i stand in the whole poltical spectrum, i have been pretty much alone.  now, i really haven’t had many problems with being the “outcast” but with this election, i feel like it has just gotten worse.  people can write mean, horrible things about the republican party and make fun of them and their ideals.  they can compare mccain to bush and say he’s no different.  they can say mccain is too old and sarah palin is caribou barbie.  they can continually say that the economic crisis is the fault of the republicans.  but the second i say something pointing out a fault of the democratic party or the inexperience of obama i get jumped on, criticized and in a way harassed. . .i feel like people look down on me as i walk down the street with my mccain and coleman buttons on my backpack.

this election has just gotten so dirty.  i’m not saying mccain isn’t at fault either, its both sides, but in a predominantly liberal city/school, i am the minority.  i’m not sure i can take it anymore.  i’m sick of being put down and having to censor what i say for fear that someone is going to attack me some more.

this gets me so worked up, it sucks. . .it shouldn’t.  i just want this election to be over.  i want people to work together and not be so divided.  ugh.  i don’t know anything else to say right now. . .things just get so jumbled up in my mind when i go and try to write them down.